03/04/11/13

A year has almost passed, and it's already November. Graduated since April, do not have the intention yet to study so work all the way. Went to work under SGP for the F1 event as a accreditation coordinator. It was really crazy, at the start it was so relax but when it is nearer to the date, I OT like mad and it was so stressful and suffocating that I even complained to my friends and even cried man. Probably it was because this year they changed to a new system, but the number of work is crazy, glad that I have ended the contract. Did not really make friends over there, perhaps is my personality, but never mind, most of the people I can say are just passer bys in my life who makes me gain experiences. 

Not forgetting my part time server job in fish and co, don't really have the intention to quit yet because of the "quite good" pay and the people there. Although no matter what Malay people are still more, but it is still fine because most of the people there are nice. Especially working with Rhiza, Steph and Charmaine and etc. And of course the reason that I stayed there is because I enjoy working in the customer service industry.

That is only a part time job. I have found a full time job at Chan Brothers with the help of my friend who expedite my resume to the Human Resource Department. As I just entered the company, my manager assigned  mostly admin job for me to do, like cashiering during the weekend and sending out emails and tax refund. My job position is actually a "Tour Coordinator" in the "Teamwork" department, to be professional. I believe as I learn more, they will give me more work to do. Actually it is not as easy as it seems it is. 

The reason why I want to work in a travel agency is because I want to gain experiences in this industry, to learn about what are the flight preparations and visa applications as I have never never travel before. i actually wanted to be a tour guide/ leader. Yes, I will have the opportunity to be one if I opt to learn counter in Chan Brothers (front line), but however I do not like to deal with stress when I do not have any experiences in travelling at all. So it's better to learn at the back end office, until I am really familiarize then maybe can put me as a counter because no matter what counter staff will have more opportunity to be a tour leader. But now let's just take one step at a time. 

At the same time, I am also studying Korean language in Daehan Educational Centre, it is located at Kenbangan Plaza. The school fee is not cheap but I heard it is pretty well-known. My teacher is a Korean and she is a nice amiable teacher, I believe I can learn a lot from her. Why I wanted to learn Korean is because I really love Korea such as their food, culture, songs and dramas. This very first country that I want to go is of course Korea. With the ability to speak Korean, it will be so much beneficial for me, and it is always good to learn an extra language. Therefore I will wish to get a cert through this school. 

I really don't mind that I have to work hard to pursue what I want. But what is always always hindering and affecting my mood is my family. I believed if you read my previous posts, most of them I will cover how much stress holding the responsibility as the eldest in the family. It is never easy and people who don't know me and still judge me, they can just fucked off. People who really knows me are only my few close friends who have always tried to encourage and keep me going, of course trying to understand how I feel. I feel so grateful to have them.

What I feel about people nowadays is that most of the people seems to like to take things for granted. Because they seems to have everything, they will start to not appreciate them. I believe there are still people who are appreciative but really not much I think. 

I just want my life to be simple and of course be happy, who does not freaking wants to be happy in their life? But will always so much worries, it is pretty hard but you have to tell yourself to move on, and keep smiling to tell yourself that everything is okay. Although I know that my family financial is not good, I will still pamper myself with good food sometimes because it makes me feel better by eating whenever I feel upset, it is my remedy. At least I don't choose to end my life, drink or even smoke. 

I believe outside there, some people might be even worse than me or like me, I salute you that you can be still strong and hang on there. If I have also friends that their situation like me, I think we can really understand each other fully, but I believe most of the people nowadays are just so blessed already, do cherish if you have a happy family and is popular around your friends, and just learn to be appreciative of what you have in life. And cherish. 

People always regret when things/ people are really gone, it's of no point already.