What do i look out for?.. my partner

How was it like to be in a relationship? Haven't not been into a real relationship before, what I know about relationship is from what I always see in drama shows. However, I know drama shows are just fairy tale stories that will not happen in the reality. 

I heard from people, watched dramas that love can make you happy, can make you sad. Probably is how people face their own relationship i guess. 

For myself, I just want a simple one. However, I have one thing that I am not sure about. How do you differentiate between "like" and "love" ? Some people said that "like" is just for a period of time, maybe he/she is nice to you, you will like. Or maybe he/she is just good looking that's why you like. 

"Love", however, is that you will make big sacrifices for the person, feel sad also whenever the person feel sad, think of the person every morning when you wake up and every night before going to bed.

I don't know how it feel like to be into one relationship. In the past, or maybe until now, the criteria of the guy I will date must be tall and good looking. My perception good looking is that so long I feel that he looks good to me, I like. Tall, is a must as if the guy were to be shorter than me I feel totally absolutely no sense of security, even if he is good looking, he is also out. I quite depends on a guy that I can really lean on. 

I quite prefer a guy who do some sports, but not really obsess with them as I am a person who does not do sports. However, I will like if he can motivate me to exercise at least regularly, I like if we both could go run together every week.  

Other than that, I feel that my partner should be gentleman, what I meant by it is that he should not be a guy with high ego and know the right time to help people, and not forgetting the basics of what a gentlemen generally should do. 

Then, he must be understanding, this is the most most important criteria for me. I have grown up in a family which is quite messy. Being the eldest, I need to face a lot of problems, and most of the time I will tend to have mood swing or just feel upset. I will need a person there who can just listen to my rantings,I know my problems he might not be able to solve it, he can choose to give me advice or just sit down there and be listener, I don't mind at all. Sometimes when I am tired, I just need him to give me a lending shoulder and he does not need to say anything or ask anything. If I were to went up to him and cry, I will prefer he just keep quiet and let me vent out my frustrations. 

And ya, the person must be like me who love to eat! Although I might not be rich but I will still pamper myself to expensive food sometimes. I of course will prefer food prices that are fairly affordable. I love sweet treats and Korean food and i would prefer if he likes them too. If he doesn't, it's okay, as I also like many other salty, bitter, sour, spicy food! Basically I just love to eat hahaha so I hope he does too!

My concern is also what he sees in me. let me talk a little bit about myself. I have actually done a short 'survey' during my 20th birthday about what people feel about me. So they were saying I am generally pretty, attractive (hahaha thank you^^), kind, understanding, quiet, and just nice. The only thing that they said that I could improve is that I am not really confident in myself and easily stress. I agree with them so I am trying to change. I would say I am also blur, I tend to forget things easily and sometimes do things wrongly. I seriously hate myself for being this way, I want myself to be smarter and not always blur here and there. I will also say i am also quite indecisive, I know myself, I cannot really make decision and tend will need some time.

My partner must be able to tolerate me for being this way. And I wanna add on is that, I don't like my partner to compare myself with other girls no matter what thing as I am just me. He should respect my decisions and think of my opinions. 

if you were to ask me how I will like my date to be like, i would say so long I am able to be by his side I feel bliss already. We can just have a simple date like watching movie, eat together, go ice skating together. I don't know how to cycle so maybe if he knows he can teach me how to, if not we can learn together. I will like to walk along the seaside as it is really refreshing. 

However, there are some things that I not prefer to do (so he must be understanding also), I cannot go amusement park to take the rides as I will feel really uncomfortable after that. And, I don't like to really reveal my self (maybe because of my weight) so I don't like wearing bikinis when going beach. 

If I met the right one, I guess there could be more activities that we can do.. i guess? Oh, but it will be good if we could go on a vacation together, this is really nice. I will love to go taiwan. But this must be plan after we have dated for sometimes, if not I will feel uneasy being just alone in a foreign country. 

I guess that's about it for my criteria in a partner, ultimately most importantly is the "feeling". I guess maybe somewhat someday somewhere I will be able to feel the "feeling". Probably  you will be shocked that what you see in that person might not be those criteria that you have set. 

That's about it for today. 안녕!